Simple Woman's Faith

Writing your story is not an easy feat, making sure that it is done with honesty and clarity in which those who hear or read would be able to understand.

I am no stranger to writing my story, I have done it a handful of times in the last 10 years or so. There were various obstacles in which I found myself hitting my head on in order to write. This time is no different but these obstacles were new to me.

When I wrote my story in the past, I was still very much struggling, in the thick of it all. My emotions were the undertone of my testimony; pain, hurt, shame and guilt. I was still that little girl trying to be set free from the past.

In the last 10 years, I have been on a journey of healing which required diving into my past, untangle and deconstructing what I knew. What I was sharing on my blog, in my writings were raw honesty which included the emotions that I was going through at that time.

But times has changed!

What is different now, I no longer see myself as that little girl. I have been set free from the guilt and shame. While I am still working through some of the pain, I do not feel constantly connect to it, tether to the point in which my words and actions reflected it.

Now, you might think that I changed my story but the changes that I had made is based on what I know now and not what I knew then. My testimony is still very much the same. But the details are sharper and with more clarity, done with more factual than raw emotional honesty.

In previous years, I had kept a set of people out of my testimony, done with the thought of being respectful but it led my story to be unproportioned, unbalanced and misleading. My story became jumbled in order “to protect” and I was overcompensating where it was not needed.

I have learned that not evey secret, every detail and every inch of my life needed to be told. There are portions in which I have worked through, acknowledge and done my due diligence to heal them quietly in order for it to be properly put to rest. I have left it to the Lord and with that it will not be placed on the internet.

I had shared my story to let my voice free, to no longer feel alone and to unmask myself. Now, I am sharing my story with the understanding of the times in which we are living in. Writing and sharing my story, might be able to give others who are struggling to gain their voice. To not feel alone and know that there is a way out of what feels like an impossible situation.